Why Wait for New Year's?

Ok, so I am tired... and subsequently very cranky... not much fun to be around of late....

The thing is, my life is a flurry of unorganization, while mentally I need to have everything perfectly tallied and in its place to function... this creates the subsequent crankiness... I'm the girl that alphabetizes her dvds, cds, books seperated by author and publishing date.... as you can imagine this makes me oh so much fun to live with!

Currently I don't have enough space to make sure that everything that I and my fabulous boyfriend own, well I hesitate to say not enough spce, our current appartment has plenty of it, however we are lacking the all too neccesary shelving units required to house said items....

The problem, or at least what I am going to label as the problem because it obviously can't be my poor time management or my magnificent ability to procrastinate, is that I have no time... none... the time that I would like to spend at home, furiously getting my home in order, is spent with my children at their father's house, or working on some other HUGE issue that has come up and I need to maintain at work.

The weekends that one might normally spend catching up on the work weeks chores gone by, I don't get to spend at home. I wake up in the morning, drive out to my ex's house and hang out there all day with the kids. Granted this makes my laundry life a little cheaper as I don't have to use the laundromat and can just wash my items at his house, however I don't get home with the fluffy clean laundry until about 9 at night, at which point in time, depending on the days activities... I am completely and utterly exhausted....

So the title of the post, um where the hell does that fit in you ask? Simple... I am not waiting until the holy of all holies of resolution making to try and get my mess of a life in order.... I am making my resolution right here and now... when I get home exhausted, I will not spend another night wasted in a hot bath and tv in the recliner until I can no longer hold my head up... I am going to start accomplishing tasks as they come towards me so that I might, just might, be ahead of the game for once...

To be as honest as possible however... we will have to wait and see... lately I have been a hell of a lot of talk with as little as possible in the action category... I am also going to have to start getting back to the gym.... I haven't gained any weight back yet, but with the onslaught of holiday meals fast approaching... it is a very real possibility!